Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Earth Day

With Earth Day being tomorrow, I took the opportunity today to get all the earth unfriendly tasks I need to do out of the way.

-I dyed my hair with chemical laden dye. I must say though, I do look good.

-I cleaned out my bathroom closet, throwing away numerous plastic bottles of half used face wash, shampoo, lotion and various other beauty concoctions that promised miracles and never delivered. I didn't wash out or recycle a single one of them.

-I drove the car to run errands to places less than a mile away.

-I made a purchase and didn't use my reusable cloth shopping bags. One of the purchases was a rug made of recycled materials. How ironic.

I'm feeling rather guilty over all of this so I promise to make it better tomorrow.

-I'll keep the lights and tv off all day. I can't promise I won't use the computer.

-I won't drive the car.

-I promise to remember my reusable bags when I grocery shop.

-I'll skip my long soaking bath and opt for a quick shower.

-I'm buying new containers for my recyclables. The ones I have now are too small and it often deters me from throwing a bunch of things in them.

Ahh, I'm already feeling better.

Bummed

I'm getting really frustrated with the apartment search. Why is DC so expensive? We have 6 weeks until the end of our lease and it doesn't look hopeful.

I won't be devastated if we have to stay here. I love it here. I love our neighborhood, our neighbors, our building. I can walk to just about any store and numerous playgrounds. The bus is literally steps from my door. Ryan's commute to work is less than 10 minutes. And the view! Oh, Lord, the view. I stare out of the window most of the day.

Every place I look at just doesn't compare. Plus, they all cost too much. I just wish this place was a little bigger. Honestly, it doesn't even have to be bigger, it just needs an extra wall. A wall to make an extra bedroom. Even the two bedrooms we are looking at don't have as much square footage as this place does.

I'm bummed.

23 weeks








Thursday, April 16, 2009

Mr. Personality

Now that he's talking more, Lane has really become a quirky little kid. His personality is shining brightly and I love it. Here's a few nutty things he's done lately.

He hates when Ryan and I are having fun. Especially if we are singing or dancing. Although he used to be amused and would giggle when I sang to him as a baby, he now puts his hand out as if to say stop, and says, "Whoa! Whoa!". Like he's saying, "Hey lady, it's time to cool it." Break out into a little dance and he screams, "Noooooo!!" and stomps his feet angrily. Weird. I guess we're already the embarrassing parents.

I made some bunny paw prints and taped them to the floor leading up to his Easter basket on Sunday. When he woke up and saw them he stopped and stared for a minute, taking it all in then said, "A mess. A mess." and shook his head back and forth. Then pulled them up and threw them away. Apparently, he wasn't too pleased with the bunny for leaving his dirty prints on the living room floor. I was able to capture it in pictures.






He thinks his name is you. I can't blame him. We're the ones who kept telling him that. When we look at pictures we'll say "That's mommy, that's daddy, and that's you." So now every time he sees a picture of himself he screams "You, you!"

His newest "game" is pretending to cry and telling me he's sad. Then he asks for a hug. It's really sweet and I kind of like this game because it always ends up with him letting me hold him and kiss him to make him feel better. It backfired on me today though. I thought we'd reverse rolls and I pretended to cry. Then he started to really cry because he didn't know I was pretending.

What a sensitive, quirky soul.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

I've kissed my baby a million times today

I've mentioned before I belong to an online community of women with babies born the same month as Lane. Although I've never met any of these women in person, I feel they are some of my closest friends. We've shared birth stories, milestones, and frustrations. We've talked each other through those rough first months with a newborn when we had no idea what we were doing. We've encouraged each other when one of us was trying to conceive and cried with each other when it was once again "not our month". We've celebrated the births of siblings. We've vented about our husbands or our rough day stuck at home. We've laughed at the funny things our toddlers say and do.

And now we are collectively crying and broken hearted. One of our friends is fighting a battle no mother should ever have to face. Her sweet baby boy was diagnosed with high risk stage 4 neuroblastoma (cancer). He has several tumors and it's also in his bone marrow.

When she wrote, "He was diagnosed with cancer", it took my breath away. I can't even imagine how she felt when she heard those horrible, terrifying words.

What do you say when there really are no correct words?

I suddenly see Lane with brand new eyes. That frustration over him throwing his toys or not wanting to eat dinner seems so wasteful now. What silly, insignificant things to get upset about.

Hang in there, Garrett! Fight hard. Your MMT mommies are rooting for you.

ETA: When I ran spell check on this post, neuroblastoma came up incorrect with no suggestions for a correct spelling. Even blogger thinks that word shouldn't exist.

22 weeks


This was taken after eating an enormous dinner so I look a little bigger than I actually am.

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

21 weeks


And here it is.

Made from scraps I had laying around. I knew that fuzzy yellow fabric would find it's calling one day.



Sunday, April 05, 2009

Hippity, Hoppity, Easter's on it's Way!!

I have a tradition, if you can call it that since this is only the second year, of making a stuffed animal for Lane's Easter basket. Some of you might remember the mutant bunny from last year. I'll do myself a favor and not dig that post up.

I was smart this year and instead of just winging it and pretending I am actually creative, I found a cute pattern. This year I'm making this chicken, or at least my interpretation of it. I'm working on it tonight and will post the pictures tomorrow. Wish me luck.

Thursday, April 02, 2009

Aww!



This is so sad.

I started filling out the new baby's book. Just the basics like the family tree, about the parents, our hopes and dreams for the baby, blah, blah, blah..... I get to the current events page and started filling out things about world leaders, famous sports teams, movies, celebrities, etc. Then I get to popular songs. I draw a blank. I have no idea what's being played on the radio right now. I mainly listen to NPR and other talk radio shows. I'm so lame. And old.